Clinging On

 

There has to be

a combination of letters,

a sequence of words

which can explain

how I feel about you.

You might say,

Why juggle alphabets ?

I don't care and

It does not matter the least

Your jokes are cruel.

I laugh sometimes,

and sometimes

when I don't understand them

I note them on a piece of paper.

The more I decode you,

divide you into days, hours, moments,

the more I trivialize

"Nothing"

is all i can finalize

I realise the absurdity

I might be weak, 

and I might not enjoy

but 

I will cling on to you.